[He has been in it fairly often before they became a couple, after all. It was a serving safe space.]
I never said you needed my permission, Taryon. I became jealous, yes, and I should have tried to keep my temper. However, that isn't the same as demanding you to ask if you may have friends over as if you're my whelp.
I also wasn't suspicious of you, I was suspicious ofhis motivations.
It's so easy to have someone wooed away from you. I discovered that not too long ago...
If he tried anything untoward, Doty was there to defend me.
Now Johnny thinks I'm spreading lies behind his back. I didn't think you were going to share what I told you with him. I thought people weren't supposed to share that.
[He hadn't thought about Johnny attacking Taryon, Astarion's fears were purely the possibility of wooing, but at that moment he is glad Tary has his metal companion.]
I shouldn't have. He had just made me so angry.
[He really doesn't want to offer what he is about to offer, it leaves a bitter taste on his tongue, but if he is going to make things right with Taryon.]
I will try and talk to him. It was my misunderstanding, and you were bragging with a friend. My mind, it's bent to assume certain things when it shouldn't.
[Everything seemed to be going so well, but it turns out Astarion isn't suddenly free from all negative thoughts just because they're dating. Anger? At Johnny? Sure, Taryon can be uncomfortable with his sexual comments, but it's nothing he can't manage.
...Should he have warned Astarion that Johnny is a crude man? Another piece of evidence that Taryon could have prevented all of this if he were more forthcoming.]
Alright. Good to know.
I'm not Tav, you know. I may not be aware of what exactly happened, but that's a conversation for later.
[He isn't free of his nastier faults, and as he has this conversation he wonders if he can be. Does someone like him dare to hope for happiness? After all he has done, after everything Cazador has done to break him?]
You're not him, no. And that's good.
[He frowns at the last message. Part of him wants to protest this. Astarion wants to see him, badly. He had apologized, hadn't he?
But he closes his eyes, tells himself to calm down. Don't be so ridiculous.]
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[He has been in it fairly often before they became a couple, after all. It was a serving safe space.]
I never said you needed my permission, Taryon. I became jealous, yes, and I should have tried to keep my temper. However, that isn't the same as demanding you to ask if you may have friends over as if you're my whelp.
I also wasn't suspicious of you, I was suspicious ofhis motivations.
It's so easy to have someone wooed away from you. I discovered that not too long ago...
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Now Johnny thinks I'm spreading lies behind his back. I didn't think you were going to share what I told you with him. I thought people weren't supposed to share that.
Is this about Tav?
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I shouldn't have. He had just made me so angry.
[He really doesn't want to offer what he is about to offer, it leaves a bitter taste on his tongue, but if he is going to make things right with Taryon.]
I will try and talk to him. It was my misunderstanding, and you were bragging with a friend. My mind, it's bent to assume certain things when it shouldn't.
Yes. Tav.
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...Should he have warned Astarion that Johnny is a crude man? Another piece of evidence that Taryon could have prevented all of this if he were more forthcoming.]
Alright. Good to know.
I'm not Tav, you know. I may not be aware of what exactly happened, but that's a conversation for later.
I think I need some time alone.
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You're not him, no. And that's good.
[He frowns at the last message. Part of him wants to protest this. Astarion wants to see him, badly. He had apologized, hadn't he?
But he closes his eyes, tells himself to calm down. Don't be so ridiculous.]
All right. I will wait for you.